I got on Facebook this morning. I’d been up for a while so that’s a plus. I try to make sure that I get God’s Word before I get other words but sometimes I miss. This morning though, I woke up and did devotions and some daily Bible reading. I had a cup of tea, some granola, and now I’m working on my first cup of coffee for the day. But something happened on Facebook that made me need to write. Haven’t done this in quite sometime but I had something I needed to say.
I wasn’t on there for a very long time, but here is what I overwhelmingly saw:
Look at this new thing I want!
Look at this new thing I have!
Look at this place, I wish I lived there!
Look at this great thing happening for my family!
Look at this!
Look at this!!
LOOK AT THIS!!!!!!!
And this all coming after overhearing a conversation recently that basically boils down to this: we can’t fix everything…so why do anything?
I just finished a book that has changed my life. Let My People Go Surfing was written by the founder of Patagonia. And one of the things that has changed my life from this book was in the last few pages. Yvon Chouinard stated that we could make a difference in the world if we would pay attention as consumers. If we would make the conscious effort to consume only what we need. Not what we want.
Can I tell you what I want today? As in, my wildest dream for this day, February 27th, 2019? What I want more than anything in the whole wide world today…
is my own life.
This isn’t some arrogant rant about the perfection that is the world of Maggie, God knows I’ve got scars and a few very painful open wounds right now, but today, I want my life. That is all.
I want my home. This small little one bedroom apartment. I want my job. A coffee shop that can be so crazy busy I don’t even feel like I can afford to breathe (and also sometimes I’m afraid I forget to). I want my dog. The one who tries to pull me down the stairs and who gives me dirty looks when I turn the TV on. I want my car. The plain little Kia in the parking lot. I want my family. The dysfunctional one that can function around a home cooked meal. I want my scars. I’ve had a lot of loves die in my life and I wouldn’t change loving them for the world. I want my open wounds. I’m in the actual process of losing more loves on this very day…but the times with them have been spectacular and again, I wouldn’t trade safety and wholeness for missing out on the chance to love these people. I want my life today; rain or shine, good or bad…wait. No. That’s not it.
I want my life today…rain and shine, good and bad, tears and smiles, highs and lows. This is my life. This is where the God who placed the galaxies, the planets, the continents, and the countries has placed me. Sometimes, I dream other things…but today I dream of this. And I pray I grow to dream of this more and more. For today, I’m living my wildest dreams.
For a couple years now, I’ve picked a phrase to end every blog post with. Let’s start a new one. And let’s take it from the mother of Jesus. Mary is freaking awesome y’all. We’re gonna grab her words from Luke 1 after an angel has told her she will bear the Savior of the world.
“And the angel answered her, ‘The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; therefore the child to be born will be called holy — the Son of God…for nothing will be impossible with God.’ And Mary said, ‘Behold, I am the servant of the Lord; let it be to me according to your word.’
Luke 1:35, 37-38
Let it be.