Let me paint you a picture.
I woke up this morning with my left hand in great pain. I couldn’t close me fingers enough to make a fist because of the swelling and pain. Let my boss know I wouldn’t be able to make it to work today and made an appointment with the doctor. By the time I got to the doctor I could make a fist but it hurt like crazy. X-rays showed no fractures or anything. Prescribed a brace. Got one.
Came home and decided not to waste the day. I love some people in Charlotte, NC who are going through hell right now. I can’t fix it. But I can walk with them. So I had found a couple of jobs I wanted to apply for. Amazon is hiring for a warehouse job. Only no they’re not. Went through their whole application process just to find out that they don’t have any openings right now. So I started looking around and slowly but surely the bigger questions started to arise. What do I even want to do with my life?
Have you ever noticed that is how strangers start conversations? “So Maggie, what do you do?”
“Well, stranger, I appreciate the fact that you are trying to figure out where I fit in the ranking of acquaintances you have based on monetary value on your assumption of what I make in my current position, but I prefer not to answer this questions because I am a complex individual and that question irritates me.”
I’m working on an updated version of How to Lose Friends and Alienate People.
Anyway, once the deepness set in, I thought I’d just do some career tests. They helped. Only no they didn’t. I did three. The first one told me I was SACIRE (social, artistic, conventional, investigative, realistic, and enterprising). As in that is the order of my personality. The VERY NEXT ONE I TOOK said I was RIASEC.
I’m not laughing.
The next one didn’t make me laugh either. But it did make me cry a little bit. It identified the girl that took the test as:
“Feeling stressed out due to her current situation and the demands which are placed on her. Working to release herself from all things that hold her back or tie her down. Let down from hopes and dreams being unfulfilled or disappoint her. Is doubtful and uncertain about the future and weary of choices she needs to make. Feels conflicted between hope and necessity.”
Y’all. This skips directly over the classic “hammer hitting nail” cliche and goes straight to trained army sniper nailing an enemy assailant perfect center in the heart from 1,000 yards. I mean. I can’t.
And basically…that’s my day. We’ve had physical pain, we’ve had emotional pain, psychological pain, you name it. And in the grand scheme of life, it wasn’t a lot of pain and I know that. But in the grand scheme of my Monday, November 19th, 2018…it’s been overwhelming. So as I listen to some music and get ready to go watch something that will make me life, let me ask you a question.
What do you do?