Are you familiar with the weight of a war? I’m not speaking of a war “against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places” (Eph. 6:12, ESV). I stood under such a weight Monday night. I was minding my own business and suddenly Satan struck up a struggle. And it was a doozy!I was feeling the conviction of an evil spirit. Not the Holy Spirit. And if you’ve ever felt wholly convicted as opposed to Holy convicted…you know there is a very unpleasant difference.
I was struggling with the place I’m at currently in life and the things I want and the things I feel God is calling me toward and how exactly I am supposed to balance that with reality and society’s expectations. I was feeling a very deep form of nothingness, emptiness, and loneliness.
I don’t know what place you’re in right now or what it is you’re struggling with–maybe it’s your children, maybe it’s your job, or maybe it’s your lack of both. But can I share something with you that brought me to a beautiful place of peace?
I don’t know about you, but I have heard this song so many times! However, Monday night, one of the lines I’ve sung so many times caught me in a new way — cut me to a new quick.
This line is in the chorus:
“This is amazing grace,
This is unfailing love,
That You would take my place,
That You would bear my cross…”
I’m telling you something. This line came out of absolutely nowhere for me. Here I stood, in the middle of an auditorium full of believers, struggling against the strain of an unseen battle, knowing full well that God was real and there and active. But what caught me by surprise was the fact that He took my place.
Suddenly, in my heart, this didn’t just refer to my place on the cross, although He definitely took that “my place”. But it meant this place, this place of the weight of war has been taken. The God who won and wins the war has filled me and in so doing, filled this place. I do not fight alone.
One of my favorite passage of Scripture comes from 2 Chronicles. I know…you don’t hear that a lot. But it is true. This passage says:
“You will not need to fight in this battle. Stand firm, hold your position and see the salvation of the Lord on your behalf, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid and do not be dismayed. Tomorrow go out against them, and the Lord will be with you.”
-2 Chronicles. 20:17, ESV
Whatever place you find yourself in today, know this: God is in this place.God will take your place. You are not alone, and you do not need to fight. Just stand. Just hold onto your ground. Watch God win the battle. He already won the war. Trust the God who knows both the weight of war…and the taste of victory.