I have been uncharacteristically silent on a situation that has been going down in my life. But I have been placed in a place where God invited me to come into this crisis and simply walk around with Him in it a while. But I’m ready to write about it now. So buckle up.
Last Tuesday, I was moved by words concerning spiritual warfare. I was moved to draw a black “X” on my hand to remind me that “X” marks the spot. The spot of heavenly places, of spiritual warfare, of invisible war diluted by visible circumstances. Mere hours after I drew that “X” on my hand…I received a text. This text was from one of my dearest, most bestest friends in the universe. My dear, darlin friend explained that she was requesting prayer for her 15 month old daughter, little Grace, who was in the hospital and would be undergoing surgery on a brain tumor the following Thursday (April 12th).
We received a pretty positive outlook from the surgeon going in and we all sat expectant and hopeful in the waiting room until the surgery was over. Then they took the parents in to speak to the doctor. Then the immediate family. That was the first time that word was used: cancer.
The world goes black. A white, hot spotlight shines down on an instance in your life and you are faced with a question…what now? What do you want to do now? I looked down at the “X” on my hand and weeped bitterly.
“Sometimes there is nothing to obey, the only thing to do is maintain a vital connection with Jesus Christ, to see that nothing interferes with that.”
Whatever you find yourself in today, whether by your own creation or completely against your will and best intentions, I encourage you to take the time to align your heart with God. Not to align your heart with a belief that God is good or that God won’t give you more than you can handle or that God will bring you out to the conclusion you see as best scenario…just that God is. Lock eyes with Jesus Christ and refuse to look away. There are times when that doesn’t visibly lead to more strength, or better outcomes, or happy endings but it will forever and always lead to the God who sustains you (Ps. 55:22).
Whatever you are today…
And pray for #OurAmazingGrace